So, lit is killing me. Uh-no, not the report or analysis, but the fact that I actually have to keep watching this bloody (yes, I mean it literally) scene over and over again. How am I ever going to comment on zooming in when I don't even dare open my eyes when the camera actually zooms in? And its not helping that there isn't music D: Darn, this is actually worse than one missed call, yeah, albeit in the comfort of my room, and full-blown filament wires luminating the whole room. Its making me feel like I am seeing THE LIGHT. Gourd.
THIS IS FREAKING ME OUT.
THIS IS FREAKING ME OUT.
THIS IS FREAKING ME OUT.
THIS IS FREAKING ME OUT.
THIS IS FREAKING ME OUT.
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whoa. I just successfully watched it while blasting dashboard confessional.
no, no, no.
date: Sunday, July 19, 2009 @ 9:50 PM
title: miracles
With so many tests to study for and so much homework, I find it a MIRACLE for me to be here. But then again, today was too miraculous for me not to blog about it. After service, I zoomed down to meet martha for vet's baptism at trinity church. We witnessed so many miraculous testimonies that I somehow felt roused, from the illusion of questioning where He was when I needed him near. Then I realised, how he has always been here, just that I've never really figured. I guess it was God's will for me to attend her baptism today and realise what I need to do in my life. Anyway, Yvette has been an awesome friend and fellow debater, despite her annoying insecurity issues, she has really been a nice friend and holy reminder. So, if you happen to read this, congratulations on this renewed journey with CHrist and may the Holy Spirit continue to guide you in your life. So, I guess I'm still trying to find out what to do and do whatever I need to do. Okay haha, that was a tongue twister.
So, then another miracle happened when I was on the bus back with them. This little cute boy was sitting in front of us and we were making funny faces and being all weird. Martha was convinced he was freaked out by me, but obviously her paedo tendencies were the real cause of his death-glares. Surprisingly, things took a turn for the better and he started turning back regularly to amuse us. HAHAHAHA. So anyway, when he left the bus, he waved AT ME and said bye TO ME like a few GAZILLION times! He was like, "bye bye! bye bye! bye bye! bye bye!" Then I was like, " BYE BYE BYE BYE BYE BYE!" while desperately waving at him and hi-fi-ing him. AND HE GOT OFF THE SAME STOP AS MARTHA! HAHA! The irony. Anyway, that was a miracle because we seldom meet such responsive babies. Or little boys for that matter.
Then again, YET another miracle happened! I went cycling with Gladys! You know how rare that is? With all the busy schedules and all. And I'm glad I went cycling with her. Not only did I get a good workout, I just enjoyed the time spent, albeit the nagging thought of chem, history and math at the back of my mind.
So, today was a good day spent, and I hope so will tomorrow.
Indescribable From the highest of heights to the depths of the sea Creation's revealing Your majesty From the colours of fall to the fragrance of spring Every creature unique in the song that it sings All exclaiming Indescribable Uncontainable You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name You are amazing God All powerful, untamable Awestruck we fall to our knees as we humbly proclaim You are amazing God Who has told every lightning bolt where it should go or seen heavenly storhouses laden with snow Who imagined the sun and gave source to its light Yet conceals it to bring us the coolness of night None can fathom Indescribable Uncontainable You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name
You are amazing God All powerful, untamable Awestruck we fall to our knees as we humbly proclaim
You are amazing God You are amazing God Indescribable Uncontainable You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name You are amazing God All powerful, untamable Awestruck we fall to our knees as we humbly proclaim You are amazing God Indescribable Uncontainable You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name
You are amazing God Incomparable, unchangeable You see the depths of my heart and You love me the same You are amazing God You are amazing God.
date: Monday, July 13, 2009 @ 9:48 PM
title:
oops! I forgot to 大力推广MARTHA的博客！ okay, so did that even make sense? haha okay anyway, Martha's campaign blog!
NOW'S THE TIME! NOW'S THE TIME TO VOTE FOR MARTHA CHING! LIGHTS, CAMERA, SATISFACTION! NOW'S THE TIME! NOW'S THE TIME TO VOTE FOR MARTHA CHING! LIGHTS, CAMERA, SATISFACTION!
MAR MAR MAR MARTHA CHING MAR MAR MARTHA CHING! MAR MAR MAR MARTHA CHING MAR MAR MARTHA CHING!
(repeat chorus)
HAHA! megan made lyrics for like the rest of the song ! heehee! it can become like our dnd song since we all contributed to the awesome creation of it! only with different lyrics maybe. ohoh! and sweeen has like actions for it!
SO, VOTE MARTHA CHING! (NOT ONLY BECAUSE SHE WEARS LOTS OF BLING) HAHA.
date: @ 9:29 PM
title:
AHAHAHA. I AM UNEXPLAINABLY HIGH, DUE TO DRAMA LESSON AND I THINK ITS THE NUMBING EFFECTS AGAINST SCREWED-UP ORAL TODAY. NEED I SAY MORE? ANYWAY, DON'T TALK TO ME ABOUT ORAL (gives the tricia -serious, pissed, say-one-more-word-and-i-kill-you face)OR I WILL.. OKAY, I'M NOT SURE WHAT I'LL DO BUT IT SURE WON'T BE PLEASANT.
So, having done with that, here's a loong excerpt from christine's blog which is absolutely witty and hilarious, but disclaimer! if you're a twilight saga fan, please immediately fly away(LOL pun).
"okay im still in the throes of teenage angst and i shall use it as an opportunity to make everyone feel as miserable as i am.
starting with twilight.
okay, so one day i was in Times bookstore browsing a book. i see an acceptably hot guy staring at me from a book's cover. i take it and flip over to the blurb. and i flip. the book plot's about this girl and a vampire dude and some werewolves are involved to and the book wasnt written by a certain S. Meyer and i was going what. the. fuck.
this book's plot is a ripoff from twilight! speaking of which, why do people even want to read twilight? it has no plot, bad characters, a fucking MARY SUE as a protagonist and so irritating i wish Twilight was real just so i could punch her in the face. it has no extensive vocabularly or vast array of phrases that make you go, boohoo. in fact, if you ever cry because of text-centred approach its because you're thinking, "ohmygod. please tell me that Meyer didn't just massacre the english language."
AND PEOPLE ARE COMPARING HER TO JK ROWLING I MEAN PLEASE. JK is genius. she doesn't have complicated phrases but that's absolved by the genius plot. you can tell she's been thinking when she writes the book, at least. Meyer, on the other hand's like, OOOH OOOH OOH I WANT THIS TO BE MY BOYFRIEND . and she writes all the qualities down, bases it on an urban myth, makes the guy devastatingly hot and sparkly, and wham, its a bestseller.
what the fuck?! i feel very scared for this generation, with the average teenager's reading list starting at Twilight and ending at Eclipse.
"oooh, i like my boyfriend, he's sparkly!!!"
not to mention the movie sucked shit. I SAW THE SHAPE OF EDDIE'S RED CONTACTS so fake. the acting was so stilted and i kept laughing during the show because it was utterly ridiculous (the blog post from my old blog here) . the plot was even worse than the book's (and the impossible just keep happening.) and the acting was about just as good as channel 5's. which, as well all know, isn't exactly hollywood worthy.
so how was it able to sweep all the awards, over gossip girl, which has a extremely good looking, well-dressed and overall glamorous cast, and a complicated gossip plot line, or better yet, the dark fucking knight. they can't act! eddie over here looks like a bloody douchebag? ohmigod i think if i concentrate enough, he does hold a slight (and i emphasise on slight) relation to Nate Archibald of Gossip Girl (by the way, to liken the resemblance more this is the worst photo i have of him) AND YOU CAN SEE, NATE IS SO MUCH HOTTER EVEN THOUGH I DONT LIKE NATE MUCH BUT STILL.
there's only one reason why fangirls still go into orgasm hearing edward cullen's name. they all want an Edward to their Bella. which i must therefore pop, because i honestly feel damn irritated by all the vampire-y shows and books popping up and taking away shelf space of those that should be appreciated more, like The Name of The Wind, or Skinned. both are exceedingly rare, but one of the best books i read.
WHY DO GIRLS LIKE EDWARD SO MUCH? he plays the piano, musically inclined. he's hot. he's smart. he's undateable. he's a vampire, which pretty much guarantees the best love bites ever. and he's the most cliche thing ever to walk this universe ("oh i love you bella will never leave you honeybaby w0rhsxsxsz not even to that infernal hairy wolfboy of yours lurbb lurbb muacksxsxsz") BUT HONESTLY GIRLS DO YOU REALLY THINK SUCH A PERSON EXISTS. and even if he does, what are the chances of him finding you of all people? what makes you so special? what's with the sudden allure to vampires, if you're that into mythical creatures go find a Yeti to snuggle with. or a Giant Octopus. i swear there're more chances of them existing than a vampire.
and its so utterly disgusting how people react to New Moon its like they actually think they're reliving the book through the movie again. and that's fine with me, if you're into the whole attain-nirvana-through-repeatedly-dying kind of thing. please oh god dont let that grow up till our next generation our kids will be born half retarded with a love-biting tendencies trying to imitate the latest vamp fad ohmigod
i mean, vampire sperm?"
HAHAHA okay, besides the expletives, it owns you, and not to mention, meyer. hahaha, although I actually think twilight the movie is slightly feeling. so anyway, haha, have fun :D with oral. and to all those who DON"T have oral, i have nothing to say.
so, the next few weeks will be spent on greek theatre, EUNUCH admirals(oh great thanks KUO PAO KUN) and little terrorists running around lush green plains.
so there.
date: Sunday, July 12, 2009 @ 9:50 PM
title:
I know I'm supposed to be doing drama grah! which is due in approximately 2 hour and 9 minutes but I just wanted to update, heh.
Yes, so, oral is like, tomorrow. And drama, is also like,tomorrow. And drama o-level individual devised piece is also due like, in 2 hours time. So, I guess I should sleep soon?
So anyway, while sitting through sermon this morning, I realised that awesome pastors would make awesome debaters. Aren't they supposed to convince people that God exists and we should believe in Him? Then, I realised, the only difference between pastors and debaters was their audience. People watching a debate rely maybe a full 100% on logic and sense, but a congregation most probably relies on a full 100% of FAITH. No? I will need lots of FAITH, yes.
toodles! wish me all the best for oral!
date: Sunday, July 5, 2009 @ 5:10 PM
title:
This post is dedicated to Isabelle Li Siyun. (although she will never read this haha)
So, I've known her since primary one, but believe me, our primary school days were troubled by lots of childish causes. I guess after growing up, I've learnt to cherish more distant friendships, especially when I've been hitting rough patches recently in every area of my life. The purpose of this post is simply to shoutout how awesome Isabelle is. I've been trying to spot her matches on TV these few days and boy was I lucky! So anyway, it was a really tough match! they had like 7 games in total because the game kept going back and forth. She was really exhausted but brilliant all the same, with all her damn pro tactics. I believe everyone who've seen her match will agree that she has such fantastic strategy and stamina. Although she didn't win, she was awesome all the same. I cannot emphasise anymore on how AWESOME she is, but she really is AWESOME! After her match though, she looked really disappointed. She has always been a perfectionist especially in her sport, wanting to do her best in everything. She has never been good with failures, but that is exactly why she is doing so well now. I am dead sure that the whole of Singapore is darn proud of her for her awesome-ness!
I've fallen into this pool of nostalgia, and my primary school friends have been digging out those long-forgotten and felt emotions I've had. Sometimes I wish we could all be in primary school forever, devoid of the ugliness of this world.
Anyhow, my whole primary school class is so proud of Isabelle! So, (to isabelle) don't feel too bad alright? YOU WERE AWESOME! I'm sure she will out-do herself the next time.
date: Saturday, July 4, 2009 @ 10:44 PM
title:
geesh! DIAPER HEAD!
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
credits christine! <3
date: @ 9:38 PM
title:
I know I was never meant to feel this way. I know HE has never wanted me to feel this way. But I just can't help it. It was my decision. I can't exactly call it regret, but its definitely painful.
I feel so horrible now. I feel like I am stranded, out at sea. Struggling alone in those icy waters. I see so many people at shore. They are desperately trying to tug at me. But I won't budge. That stupid pride.
So now, I am reduced to escaping. How long more can I do this? I don't know.
